Thursday, June 10, 2010


Right now I am just going through a time of great growing. You know the times like when you were a kid and could really feel those growing pains. I have been having a lot of growning pains as of late and would like for them to stop. There are so many things in life that creep back up just when you think that you have completely overcome them .It doesn't feel good. You look at yourself and really don't like who you see. The main thing that God keeps reminding me is that if I don't like what I see I can just change it. I don't have to hit myself over the head. He tells me, there is therefore now no condemnation for all who are in Christ Jesus. That is one of the things I do not like about myself. Guilt. That was taken care of on the cross completely paid for. Every timeI feel that, I hear God saying I already took care of that for you. Don't dredge up the old dead and buried stuff, it can no longer weigh you down. I don't know if any of you ever feel this way but just thought I would share what's on my heart.
There was a song I heard about fifteen years ago and I sing it almost every day in my head. The words are:
Don't let the past keep holding you back
Don't lose the dream in which you believe
I long to do deep within you
Something new

I guess these growing pains are to push me into the "something new" of my life. If you are having any growing pains, know that there is something new. A place beyond the past that God has for you. The past was dealt with on the cross and all that is ahead is the new.
Phillippians 3:13-14 But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.

Hang on....


  1. My beautiful daughter. When I was your age, I played through every conversation I had, every scenario, over and over because I was sure I could have made it better. This went on for years. One day I realized I didn't trust myself to be a good Christlike person. When that epiphany hit, I cried, pulled myself up and moved on. You and Carianne are some of the most Christlike people I know. I hope you can soon quit second guessing yourself and enjoy the life our Heavenly Father has given you. You have the most amazing family and friends. We love you so much and are so proud to call you ours! Your Heavenly Father loves you!

  2. You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. I love and miss you dear friend! We'll be in town next weekend I would love to see you! We'll be at Benj's reception :)

  3. Thanks Mom for that and sweet friend I cannot wait to see you. I really miss you!